so i havent updated my site in a while guys i do apologize for that, most of yall dont really know me but for those reading my blogs and such heres a update. IM ENGAGED!!! to the most amazing beyond amazing lady to ever had walked this earth! im not kidding. to me she is. shes my everything and then some. i honestly cant see me without her. so now im living with my fiance in indiana.
my favorite part of everyday is just laying beside her or simply just sitting beside her..or holding her hand. weve been dating three months now and i still get butterflies in my stomach everytime she kisses me and grabs my hand, everytime the thought "god im soo inlove with her" goes through my mind. nodoubt when were 30 and older shell still have that affect on me because thats just how amazing she is =]. im trully blessed to have her.
i was watching her sleeping a hour or so ago..i could just lay or sit there and watch her sleep all night long.so peaceful. so beautiful and gorgeous =] i still cant help but wonder how anyone could ever let someone as amazing as her go. but i thank god they did. cause know i get to show her how some of us are in it to stay. i could never hurt her. i could never let her go. i hope i dont ever have to let her go. i dont think i could make it very long without her by myside.shes a part of me. mentally and physcially. and you guys know how that goes once somethings apart of you, its hard to let it go.
so maybe if anyone reads this you guys may can give me some advice, im having a bit of trouble with my freaking out. i know dani would never do anything to hurt us, and i belive that to my fullest ability. but due to wonderful exgirlfriends past i seem to freak out with alot of little things that my ex girlfriends do. im working with myself to bring that to a stop. and everyday that im with dani. it gets better=] everyday im with her i fall even more inlove andrealize not that i hadnt already that shes the one im meant for. shes the one i want to spend the rest of my life with and have a family with. no other could come close to having that affect on me. i still wonder what she sees in me. how shes attracted to me. yes i put myself down easily as i have every right to. im not the skinnest prettiest person id have myself to be, and yet to her..im beautiful. only wish i could see what she sees in me. ex. im just getting over being sick. we're laying on the bed and she just randomly says im beautiful. the times i fill the most nonbeautilful she makes me fill and belive every word of what she says.
ive just never met someone like her. someone so nice and trusting and non judgemental and so easy to talk to even when i have problems talking or explaining anything in this messed up mind of mine. thats another thing im scarred that one day im going to wake up and shes not going to be there. you know how you think this is to good to be true. well this is true trust me ive hit and pinched myself enough times i think i would have woke up by now..but theres times im scarred to even sleep for fear she wont be there when i wake. crazy. but then i simply love just holding her and listening to her breathe. i guess yall jsut woouldnt understand unless you were in my shoes =] i have nothing else more important worht writing about and im making it my goal to hopefully some day tell the whole world. thats how proud i am of her. big goal. but its also a big dream. and shes my biggest dream come true. shes like the romeo to my juliet. and the edward to my bella =] havent wrote about her in a while so it was way past time due i update about my love =] that im very lucky to have met and blessed to have even gotten a chance with her. in my eyes she can do so much better than me pscyially and emotionally as well but at the same time im again extremly lucky and blessed she did choose me, its made me the happiest person alive =]. i love you dani always and forever 8.9.09/ 10.20.09
my favorite part of everyday is just laying beside her or simply just sitting beside her..or holding her hand. weve been dating three months now and i still get butterflies in my stomach everytime she kisses me and grabs my hand, everytime the thought "god im soo inlove with her" goes through my mind. nodoubt when were 30 and older shell still have that affect on me because thats just how amazing she is =]. im trully blessed to have her.
i was watching her sleeping a hour or so ago..i could just lay or sit there and watch her sleep all night long.so peaceful. so beautiful and gorgeous =] i still cant help but wonder how anyone could ever let someone as amazing as her go. but i thank god they did. cause know i get to show her how some of us are in it to stay. i could never hurt her. i could never let her go. i hope i dont ever have to let her go. i dont think i could make it very long without her by myside.shes a part of me. mentally and physcially. and you guys know how that goes once somethings apart of you, its hard to let it go.
so maybe if anyone reads this you guys may can give me some advice, im having a bit of trouble with my freaking out. i know dani would never do anything to hurt us, and i belive that to my fullest ability. but due to wonderful exgirlfriends past i seem to freak out with alot of little things that my ex girlfriends do. im working with myself to bring that to a stop. and everyday that im with dani. it gets better=] everyday im with her i fall even more inlove andrealize not that i hadnt already that shes the one im meant for. shes the one i want to spend the rest of my life with and have a family with. no other could come close to having that affect on me. i still wonder what she sees in me. how shes attracted to me. yes i put myself down easily as i have every right to. im not the skinnest prettiest person id have myself to be, and yet to her..im beautiful. only wish i could see what she sees in me. ex. im just getting over being sick. we're laying on the bed and she just randomly says im beautiful. the times i fill the most nonbeautilful she makes me fill and belive every word of what she says.
ive just never met someone like her. someone so nice and trusting and non judgemental and so easy to talk to even when i have problems talking or explaining anything in this messed up mind of mine. thats another thing im scarred that one day im going to wake up and shes not going to be there. you know how you think this is to good to be true. well this is true trust me ive hit and pinched myself enough times i think i would have woke up by now..but theres times im scarred to even sleep for fear she wont be there when i wake. crazy. but then i simply love just holding her and listening to her breathe. i guess yall jsut woouldnt understand unless you were in my shoes =] i have nothing else more important worht writing about and im making it my goal to hopefully some day tell the whole world. thats how proud i am of her. big goal. but its also a big dream. and shes my biggest dream come true. shes like the romeo to my juliet. and the edward to my bella =] havent wrote about her in a while so it was way past time due i update about my love =] that im very lucky to have met and blessed to have even gotten a chance with her. in my eyes she can do so much better than me pscyially and emotionally as well but at the same time im again extremly lucky and blessed she did choose me, its made me the happiest person alive =]. i love you dani always and forever 8.9.09/ 10.20.09
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